For those who do not know, I have ADHD and Autism. This is a fun mix, I do not filter, and my brain goes so fast that I have found ten things in the house to be done before I even set my foot out of my bed in the morning.
I have medication for my ADHD to slow down my brain and get my thoughts in one line, or at least as much as possible. Sometimes on the weekends, I forget them. It happens, and I do not mind it. But today, oh boy! How much I noticed that I hadn’t taken that one pill.
If AJ wasn’t sick and my husband wasn’t complaining about being tired, I would have done so many things in and around the house. I couldn’t stop, that I’m even sitting here writing is strange. To be honest, I’m tired as a dead tree, and I could probably sleep for 40 hours. But my feet are still wiggling, and I’m still thinking about everything I can do in the hours before bed.
But I didn’t do all those things on my mental list in the end. I took care of my little man, took care of my big man, and (finally) made the curtains in our bedroom the correct size. * yay, me*
I notice all the things I do not do when I am on my meds. For example, I can get hyperfocused on something cracking under my fingers—a piece of paper or plastic I’m holding. I can start “playing” with it and be content for hours. I go from one thing to the other in seconds; I do not even think I notice until I go, “Wasnt I doing something else?” And no, my brain doesn’t go “OEHH squirrel.” It’s more like this.
Sees an empty bottle and thinks about the glasses that need to be thrown away; the kitchen is also a mess. Some stuff needs to be thrown out too. Cleaning the kitchen would be nice too. Do not forget to et the wastebin outside for them to pick up. Laundry needs to be done too. Did you read that news article about… This is just something that happens daily constantly to me. With medication, it goes a little slower, still making jumps from A to Y and back to U. But I can follow conversations more effortlessly, and I can stick to one topic easier. And the best thing, it sets my already amazing hyperfocus into high gear!
I do love my hyperfocus; it’s great to have. Except that I can forget to eat, I am scared that I will forget to pick up AJ from daycare. So an alarm clock goes off for that. If you have the solution to a problem, use it. That’s what I’ve learned from my ADHD. Got a problem, find the solution, and use it. Maybe my Autism had some say in that too. But alright. I’m rambling, tired, and ready to go to bed.
Hopefully, tomorrow will be a better day.