I thought I could do this.

I thought I could do this, write a blog about autism. I still think I can, but not now. I’m in burnout, depression, and generally a dark place in my mind that takes up all my energy to fight against. And the other fact is, I have no fucking clue what my autism is; what would help you by reading this blog and how the future will be for me. Things are just a lot, and I need to find a way to stop it all from being a lot. This means I’m going to take a break from things and focus on my mental and physical health, my son, and my husband. I’ll probably get frustrated and hate myself even more for being unable to do something. I hate feeling useless and haven’t felt anything else in a long time. I hope to be back soon! And hopefully with more valuable things to say.
Thank you for following me, for reading, and for being here. It has helped, knowing I’m not alone.