I got burned out

It has been a few weeks since I have written for the blog. Because I am home with a burn-out. It took me long enough to admit to it. The burn-out had been there for weeks, maybe even months. Only I couldn’t stop; we needed the financial support that my job provided. This is aContinue reading “I got burned out”

Meditation accountability.

First, I will not do a whole ‘if I do not do this. Then this will happen thing.’ I am not adding even more pressure to the already high mountain of stress. I want to keep track and inspire others to do this alongside me if you wish to; no pressure! But here it goes,Continue reading “Meditation accountability.”

Acceptance, how the fuck?

What is acceptance? Some are easy, accepting a gift from someone, accepting that it hurts when you hit your toe. But accepting that you are and always be different than the society around you. It has plunged me into depression, tiredness, and sadness. I have been fighting the acceptance that I am different for someContinue reading “Acceptance, how the fuck?”

Autism as a straight jacket.

I feel trapped inside the diagnosis of autism, trapped in what I know about it, what I feel, and what isn’t or is autism. Autism, for me, is a freeing diagnosis that has started to become a straight jacket. Every week I, every day even, have to look at what I will be doing. AndContinue reading “Autism as a straight jacket.”

I am tiresome.

There are so many things I do to myself; I’m mostly talking about the pressure and stress I add to my life. The high quality I am looking for but absolutely not need, which I do know. Still, I need to succeed in everything I do and be because of what I am worth withoutContinue reading “I am tiresome.”

Tired and angry rant

I feel like I am giving up more and more… I can’t do too much; I can’t plan my weekends full, spontaneous meetings, watch a movie late, run when I want to or do anything unplanned with friends or my husband and child. Because if I do too much today, I am worth shit tomorrowContinue reading “Tired and angry rant”

The lone knight

I am who I am—a banana ice cream with whipped cream and a cherry. Cheerful, full of flavor, energy, and a pop of color. But I am always accompanied by a dark rich chocolate sauce that melts away the ice cream and covers everything with its powerful flavor. Overpowering everything I am or who IContinue reading “The lone knight”

How the fuck.

I work twice a week at a small but fantastic company. I feel lucky to be able to work there. But today… how the fuck am I going to explain to them that I am nothing word for the day? AJ has been sleeping poorly. Awake at different times of the night. And we doContinue reading “How the fuck.”

When will he have a brother or sister?

I do not understand that question! First of all, who are you to ask that question? It doesn’t matter if you are family or not; the question is not yours to ask. It is always up to the parents, the two who will be raising that second child. I couldn’t believe it when I gotContinue reading “When will he have a brother or sister?”