When will he have a brother or sister?

I do not understand that question! First of all, who are you to ask that question? It doesn’t matter if you are family or not; the question is not yours to ask. It is always up to the parents, the two who will be raising that second child. I couldn’t believe it when I gotContinue reading “When will he have a brother or sister?”

Aaah, how is the baby?

We all do it; we ask about the baby first, which is natural and all OK. It’s a new life, and it’s beautiful. I never felt left out when people came over to see AJ as a baby in the first weeks of his life. I found it perfectly fine that they didn’t ask meContinue reading “Aaah, how is the baby?”

Finding out how to plan my new life

I’ll probably write a few of these blog posts as this will be a trial and error kind of learning. So some posts may contradict one another; I try to remember what I have written before and adjust or link posts to each other. Still human, so please be kind if I say a firstContinue reading “Finding out how to plan my new life”

How I underestimated motherhood.

Being a mother was something I had expected I could do without even thinking about it. I am a caring and loving person; I was always the person who made sure my friends came home when they were drunk from a night out. For me mother, is described as a person who gives up everythingContinue reading “How I underestimated motherhood.”

How pregnancy influenced me

I had never expected that my pregnancy would influence my brain this much. Our planning – and yes, we underestimated pregnancy a lot! – was for us to get pregnant (of course) and for me to be writing and still be working. Growing a baby wouldn’t be that hard, right?At the moment, I could slapContinue reading “How pregnancy influenced me”

Over stimulation now and then

There are two before and afters for me. One was before I got the diagnosis of Autism, and the second one was before I became a mom. Before I got the diagnosis, I did not think I had many problems with noise, light, people, busy places, and everything else. I did have days I endedContinue reading “Over stimulation now and then”

Changes and getting used to them

There’s this “strange” thing about me. I can and can’t deal with changes. Yes, you read that right because I have two types of changes. One that I decided to make, this is nine out of ten times fine for me, and I can handle that switch like I think everyone does. And the secondContinue reading “Changes and getting used to them”

A snippet of Sunday.

I wanted to post this yesterday, but I also needed a moment to let it settle. I want to be honest, to myself and here. But this, it’s a lot. And to admit it to myself is a huge step, but saying it out loud to the world is even bigger. So I needed toContinue reading “A snippet of Sunday.”

Seeing the world through his eyes

I’ve always wondered if what I see, do or say are correct or even normal. I’ve been aware of not being normal (and they are my own words, and how I felt in this world.) for my whole life. I always knew I was different; I never knew how or why until the diagnoses ofContinue reading “Seeing the world through his eyes”

A snippet from Thursday

27 January….. I do get scared, maybe too much. It’s not the kind of scared you are for a spider or something that makes your flight or fight instincts kick in. No, for me, it’s a scared or a fear that’s constant. Thoughts like, am I doing it alright, is this how it needs toContinue reading “A snippet from Thursday”