Acceptance, how the fuck?

What is acceptance? Some are easy, accepting a gift from someone, accepting that it hurts when you hit your toe. But accepting that you are and always be different than the society around you. It has plunged me into depression, tiredness, and sadness. I have been fighting the acceptance that I am different for someContinue reading “Acceptance, how the fuck?”

Tired and angry rant

I feel like I am giving up more and more… I can’t do too much; I can’t plan my weekends full, spontaneous meetings, watch a movie late, run when I want to or do anything unplanned with friends or my husband and child. Because if I do too much today, I am worth shit tomorrowContinue reading “Tired and angry rant”

How the fuck.

I work twice a week at a small but fantastic company. I feel lucky to be able to work there. But today… how the fuck am I going to explain to them that I am nothing word for the day? AJ has been sleeping poorly. Awake at different times of the night. And we doContinue reading “How the fuck.”

Aaah, how is the baby?

We all do it; we ask about the baby first, which is natural and all OK. It’s a new life, and it’s beautiful. I never felt left out when people came over to see AJ as a baby in the first weeks of his life. I found it perfectly fine that they didn’t ask meContinue reading “Aaah, how is the baby?”

A snippet of Sunday.

I wanted to post this yesterday, but I also needed a moment to let it settle. I want to be honest, to myself and here. But this, it’s a lot. And to admit it to myself is a huge step, but saying it out loud to the world is even bigger. So I needed toContinue reading “A snippet of Sunday.”