I am tiresome.

There are so many things I do to myself; I’m mostly talking about the pressure and stress I add to my life. The high quality I am looking for but absolutely not need, which I do know. Still, I need to succeed in everything I do and be because of what I am worth withoutContinue reading “I am tiresome.”

Tired and angry rant

I feel like I am giving up more and more… I can’t do too much; I can’t plan my weekends full, spontaneous meetings, watch a movie late, run when I want to or do anything unplanned with friends or my husband and child. Because if I do too much today, I am worth shit tomorrowContinue reading “Tired and angry rant”

How the fuck.

I work twice a week at a small but fantastic company. I feel lucky to be able to work there. But today… how the fuck am I going to explain to them that I am nothing word for the day? AJ has been sleeping poorly. Awake at different times of the night. And we doContinue reading “How the fuck.”

A snippet of Sunday.

I wanted to post this yesterday, but I also needed a moment to let it settle. I want to be honest, to myself and here. But this, it’s a lot. And to admit it to myself is a huge step, but saying it out loud to the world is even bigger. So I needed toContinue reading “A snippet of Sunday.”

A snippet from Thursday

27 January….. I do get scared, maybe too much. It’s not the kind of scared you are for a spider or something that makes your flight or fight instincts kick in. No, for me, it’s a scared or a fear that’s constant. Thoughts like, am I doing it alright, is this how it needs toContinue reading “A snippet from Thursday”